“I’m afraid you are a prisoner in your own fort.” I could
not get more candid than this and that too when he was the chief. He stared
bewildered into my eyes and I knew that what I said sunk in and he was jolted
more by, may be my audacity to make that statement without mincing many words. I
saw, it was touché! I tried to lessen the impact of the hammer and hastened to
add, “I regret having to be as blunt as I was, but the fact is that you are
having in your domain two of the most fiendish persons there can be. They are
like the Rasputin and the Russian queen and have grown uninhibited that now
they see you as trivial, irritating and an expendable joke”.
After momentary reality of dismay, he soon began protesting
in his usual overblown self that he still is the lord what he surveys. Often,
his arguments were asinine and expressed defiantly, loaded with arrogance and
misplaced pride. The fact as I could see was that his bêtise may see him fall
and lay like Ozymandias pretty soon. I was not alone in concluding so. People in
the organization even spoke of a re-enact of the horror of the Ides- of- March.
They said in unanimity that, his conceit was sure to accompany him even into
the grave. Alas, some men are destined to not foresee where their own self will
eventually take themselves to!
I have not seen another who was a vacillator than he is. His
vacillations were out of fear of the man who grew ominously influential and big
under his tutelage. It was akin to a parasite growing larger than the host. His
protégé- Anthrax Romin the Greek!
The intrigues, chicanery and maliciousness he condoned and
saw as means to greater gains were orchestrated and conducted by Anthrax. Apparently
in even time he grew into an albatross and an indispensable part and that if
threatened in anyway can pull with him the whole fabric. He was privy to many shady
matters and by the fact, held a total asphyxiating control over even his
mentor’s life and business enterprise.
When it was about the hag, it has been an open speculation about
her power over this fellow Anthrax. Though observations by people may be
dismissed as sleazy gossips and innuendos, there was much substance to the
probability that she was his concubine or mistress and they were in cahoots
with bigger plans that would eclipse the psyche of Shylock. For a characterless
harlot to travel with ease from the status of a kennel-keeper and a relegated
house maid into a force that has to be reckoned in the hierarchy of the organization
and feared would certainly have more than smooth transition that was natural. She
exerted immense influence on the protégé. And he, true to his name after the
scourge, he can be as villainous as the disease itself. And together they
combined to be a force that was reprobate and grossly dangerous.
Once, the Big-man asserted that Anthrax is a “dirty
bastard”. I did not respond to the statement as I have known often that he will
pamper him and go all over the fellow like a child or a poodle when he sees him
and he has not the courage to confront him with such statement. His position as
the boss and the lord of the empire he runs, fails to aid him with character
and grit to antagonize or ruffle him. He was easily pliable, Anthrax and his
accomplice, the woman could do it with their little fingers. It was strange to
us more because Anthrax’s shenanigans was more than often compromising the big
man and putting in peril the survival of what perhaps his children should be
left or bequeathed one day.
Some others have often approached the big- fellow and failed
to prevail upon him to untangle himself from the snares of Anthrax. The big man
saw him as his “Man Friday”! He refused to heed others when they told him, “He
is the reason for the state of affairs. He always has and will continue to derail
the organization. In fact he lights the fire and cries out hastening you to run
and put it out, in the mean while he‘d have lit another fire. He survives by
ensuring you do not at any moment feel that he is dispensable. Look back, what
has he brought about since associating with you as a young fellow returned from
overseas? Nothing but choking problems and trying situations!”
One day he began in a casual conversation with me to paean
him. I listened withholding my annoyance and was later pilloried by others for
letting him shower praise on his protégé and continue with his delusions.
The book of living, if written may highlight the importance of
one’s ways, path and the people who we keep within our perimeter. For, both can
leave indelible bearing upon us and our fate. And this man seemed to be weighed
down by his conduct and the company he keeps.
He once told me to my utter disgust when I mentioned some matter
thus, “it is a big problem to be left unattended…” He held me literally pulling
my shoulder and stated, “There is nothing called big problem in life. Even if
your kid dies in a motor crash or what ever, it is only a problem and nothing more.”
"You see”, he, at another
time told me; “I work and keep this wealth for my satisfaction”.I did not want to
let him be satisfied with his mean-spiritedness and arrogance. “But Sir, we
earn and keep aside wealth or things for our dependents- our kids, our spouse
and what we call our family. I would want to do that and so will many others”.
“I’m
not foolish to hitch my happiness to my kids and wife, or am I prepared to
accept that I earn for them. You know something, if I die today, the only thing
they would do is to grab my wealth.” It was quite nauseating
and I said to myself, “you make me sick and utterly repelled. I harbour no pity
for you, you pathetic fellow”.
I felt his eyes read me and was certain, almost certain that
he read my thoughts. He dismissed me with the wave of his palm and his
customary fussy and eccentric disposition.
10 comments:
This is a very gripping story, . Narratuion is very impressive.
When a man is wrapped up in himself, he makes a pretty small package!!
Shilpa said it all in her crisp comment
Interesting man! When the human instinct is built for survival and protection and care for his kins; this guy is so engrossed in himself.
Hmm...I am wondering what could have possibly turned him to being so self centered?
@ Usha Menon,
Thanks Mam. I value your appreciation.
@ Shilpa Garg,
You hit the nail hard and it has gone in.
@ Kparthasarathi,
Yes indeed SG was point blank.
@ Insignia,
I keep wondering too. He must have like us born to parents, reared and now hear his philosophy. I feel he is ill such people are sick.
If not from real life, from where do you rake up such compelling stories?
I probably missed in publishing my comment. I had worked quite sometime back with a disgusting superior , may not be this sick a person. But then , each day when I start to work I would be annoyed with the thought of what new situation may crop up that day. Thankfully , that didnt last for long
OMG, I hope this person is not real! But then there are many shades of reality in him. If you indeed have to interact with someone like this on a regular basis then hats off to you!
As usual,Shilpas's cooments say it all like all her blog posts
@ Happy Kitten,
Compelling? Well , I can only say if one observes , look around one can find ample subjects to write about.
@ adityasaravanan,
It may or may not last long ,but in the meantime they would have done more harm.
@ Meerasundarajan,
Reading your comment, I think I must pat myself in my back.
@BK.Chowla,
Yes sir, SG was commenting straight from the hip.
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