Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Why Iam not a Christian





Apologies to Bertrand Russell for borrowing the title of his famous work.

The statement “Why I’m Not a Christian” should be understood loosely in this context. It does not specifically target the Christian mindset, nor is such an interpretation intended. Instead, it is an attempt at critiquing the general venality of those who profess and promote organised religions- Christianity,  Islam and Hinduism as well, though the latter do not fall into organised category.—the religions that most shape daily life in India. 

I have often wondered why the cross is the cornerstone of Christianity. The cross, represented in its simplest form by two lines intersecting at right angles, predates Christianity in both Eastern and Western traditions, tracing back to pagan times. It was used not only for its ornamental value but also for religious significance and as an instrument of torture.

In the early days of Christianity, the cross was rarely depicted in Christian iconography. Some suggest that Jesus died on a single-beamed stake, a common tool for torture and impalement, rather than a cross. Yet, why does the Christian establishment, which zealously nurtured and evangelized its version of Jesus’ story, insist on portraying him on the cross? The answer lies in control. The powers that govern the Christian world use the agony and humiliation of Jesus’ crucifixion to ensure the flock adheres to their dictates. It is, to paraphrase Christopher Hitchens, “the repulsive idea of vicarious redemption.” Hitchens wrote, “I find something repulsive about the idea of vicarious redemption. I would not throw my numberless sins onto a scapegoat and expect them to pass from me; we rightly sneer at the barbaric societies that practice this unpleasantness in its literal form. There’s no moral value in the vicarious gesture anyway. As Thomas Paine pointed out, you may take on a man’s debt or even his place in prison—that would be self-sacrificing. But you may not assume his actual crimes as if they were your own; you did not commit them and might have died rather than do so. For another, this impossible action would rob him of individual responsibility. So the entire apparatus of absolution and forgiveness strikes me as positively immoral, while the concept of revealed truth degrades the concept of free intelligence by purportedly relieving us of the hard task of working out ethical principles for ourselves.”

The perpetuation of Jesus’ image on the cross, despite the claim that he was taken down, entombed, and resurrected, seems to stem from a sadistic disregard for his suffering. Would Indians tolerate memorabilia of Shaheed Bhagat Singh depicted hanging from a noose or Gandhi lying in a pool of blood?

Christians claim the cross symbolises God’s act of love—Christ’s sacrifice at Calvary, “the Son of God who washes away the sins of the world.” It also represents Jesus’ victory over death, as his resurrection is believed to have conquered death itself. Yet, this veneration reeks of hypocrisy, selfishness, and disregard for another’s agony. Perpetuating the image of Jesus on the cross is an abhorrence, especially given the Church’s failure to defend him during the kangaroo trial orchestrated by the priests. This disrespects a man who, possibly influenced by wisdom gained in the East, stood against much of what Christians now practice in his name. The concept of vicarious redemption, championed by the Church, is one of the most macabre ideas ever conceived.

This brings me to the hypocrisy practised by the Church and its followers. Shashi Tharoor, in his book on Indira Gandhi, wryly commented on her twenty-point program, noting, “Even the good Lord had only ten points!” Yet, even the Ten Commandments, crafted by God, are often relegated to ceremonial occasions during holy mass.

In the New Testament, Jesus distilled the Ten Commandments into two powerful principles: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind,” and “You shall love your neighbour as yourself.” These commandments encapsulate Christ’s teachings. Yet, the Church and its zealous followers often quote them like the devil citing scripture for his own ends.

Jesus did not distinguish between a Christian God, Jewish God, or pagan God. He urged love for your God, not a specific deity. Yet, Christians divide God and human hearts by race, ethnicity, country, and denomination. In India, particularly in Kerala, Christianity is fragmented into Roman Catholic, Orthodox, Marthoma, Canaanite, Malankara, Evangelical, Presbyterian, and Pentecostal factions, among others. Not long ago, a pitched battle erupted inside a Kerala church. Many dioceses refuse to solemnise marriages between different denominations, using baptism and communion to control the flock and instill fear from an early age. The uncertainty and insecurity of life are exploited to enforce conformity.

This perversion is anti-Christ in every sense, especially when priests and zealous practitioners hurl vitriol at coexisting religions. Is this due to a misunderstanding of Jesus or simple intolerance? History reveals the cruelty of evangelisation, from the atrocities committed by missionaries in the Americas to the Vatican’s complicity with fascists and Nazis during the Holocaust. The Church’s opposition to scientific discoveries and inventions further exemplifies its rejection of inconvenient truths.

Proselytisation has been used as a tool to increase the flock, often through financial and other enticements to convert the poor and ignorant. Why must conversion be necessary for economic upliftment? If Jesus urged loving your God, this God is not jealous or sword-wielding, unlike the vindictive deity of the Old Testament. It could be Mother Nature herself. Loving your neighbour as yourself requires no quid pro quo in the form of conversion. A true Christian should find peace in a church, mosque, temple, or any place of worship, without needing a medallion of Christ on the cross.

Then there are the hypocritical practitioners—those who pray, observe the Eucharist, confess, and donate generously while professing sacrifice and disdain for material wealth. Yet, they cling to their possessions. True sacrifice is rare; those who claim to give everything often extract a pound of flesh later, undeterred by religion or kinship.

Are followers of Islam or Hinduism, as practised in India, any better? No. Religion, as currently practised, is a bane on humanity, more dangerous than opium and deadlier in its toll.

When Islam kills in the name of God, it ceases to be a religion of love and compassion. When the Golden Temple was filled with weapons, it lost its sanctity. Injustice and pain inflicted on a Hindu, Jew, or Muslim are equally egregious, as suffering knows no religious bounds.

Islamophobia is not a mere phobia; it is rooted in reality. Innocent Muslims suffer because their religion remains mired in a 7th-century tribal mindset, lacking the courage to unite against murder, rape, and pillage within or beyond their community. The promise of paradise to justify terrorism is beyond comprehension. A faith that once contributed to learning has been constricted by obscurantism, denying the right to think. When schools are razed and girls are terrorised, Islam loses its claim to salvation, corroded by bigotry. Sectarian conflicts, such as between Shia and Sunni, further prove that religion often divides rather than unites.

Hinduism, unique to India, has been hijacked by ash-smeared, trishul-wielding bigots in saffron. When religion merges with political opportunism, it becomes a pernicious force. Hinduism, with its pantheon of gods and goddesses, once allowed devotion to any deity without incurring the wrath of others. Yet, the spread of Aryan civilisation introduced the caste system, entrenching discrimination that now threatens this way of life. India, historically a haven for Jews, Christians, Muslims, and Buddhists, as seen in the Cheraman Masjid (639 AD) and Cochin’s Jewish synagogues, now faces rising intolerance, with daily reports of rape, murder, corruption, and desecration of nature.

Blasphemy laws and fatwas silence expressive voices, revealing the fragility of faith. A faith that trembles at a book or caricature is brittle indeed. How does a film about a widowed Hindu woman by the Ganga denigrate Hinduism? As Voltaire said, “I detest what you say, but I’m prepared to die for your right to say it.”

Faith is tarnished not by criticism but by how it is practised. As John F. Kennedy said, “Religion must be as private as one’s toothbrush.”

Saturday, September 20, 2008

A small attempt .........................to know myself.

Is there meaning to this life? Hindu wisdom speaks of karma and rebirth—a cycle that continues until sins from past lives are cleansed. Not exactly a thrilling revelation to shout “Eureka!” over. Christians, through confession, temporarily absolve sins in this life, promising either eternal hell or the golden gates of heaven. In Islam, as some interpret it today, one might reach the hereafter—hell or heaven, who knows?—by sacrificing oneself and others in a violent act.

I can’t subscribe to these views. Perhaps I’m a fool, but no one has returned from death to validate these theories. This brings me back to the core question: Why am I here? It feels senseless.

What difference would it make if I’d never been born? What changes when I’m gone? A deluge? Hardly. That’s a fantasy for megalomaniacs, and I’m far from one.

Can someone explain why we’re here? What sense is there in the frenzy and chaos we plunge into? The Sherpa who summited Everest on his 75th birthday clearly had a unique purpose, a distinct perspective on life.

From a tender age, we’re conditioned—indoctrinated into a conformed existence. We learn to react not with open hearts but with practised masks, hiding venality and banality. Society demands we become someone, adhere to an ideology, and profess faith in a prescribed path. Childhood conditioning carries us through adolescence into adulthood, where we master hypocritical acrobatics, becoming perfectly arboreal, as society desires. We betroth, marry, and raise children, then become the ones conditioning the next generation. The cycle persists. Meanwhile, time’s relentless tide wears us down, mentally and physically. Fatigued, we retreat behind closed doors, limbs aching from wear and tear, awaiting that final exhalation—slipping into a wooden casket, consumed by an electric crematorium’s inferno, or perhaps donated to cadaver-hungry medical schools.

Will you then ask, from your heart, “Did I make the most of my days on this earth?” Is bearing and rearing children, living a conformist life, being “goody-goody,” merely prosaic? For a mountain lover, every peak scaled, for an explorer, every frontier touched, for a biplane pilot, every cloud caressed—these are the beginning and end of life’s meaning. So, does producing children and withering away in clustered conformity, disconnected from the earth that gave us life, truly count?

On this Saturday afternoon sans “alcohol”………









On this Saturday afternoon sans“alcohol”………

The art of selfishness, hypocrisy, debauchery, manipulation and, mendacity. .

The adjectives are livid and provoking. But yet the story that may throw light into the factual of this rare alignment of qualities in a person is frightening.

It is true that a claim of sacrifice is not to be seen as a sensibility that must call for salutation, let alone virtue. Those who claim and profess that they sacrificed all they had are a dangerous lot, that some where down the line they would extract monumental value in return, that will maim many lives constantly and for ever.

Those who claim of having given away all they possess, material- are profanely dishonest. And it is vulgar to dispossess oneself. It is destructive to give away all that you have and give away free... And no body ever will.

Will it be contested if I say, God did well the first five days of creation but faltered the sixth day, and he retreated into Sabbath to atone for his pitfall- in creating "man"?
It is noted in Anonymous. “Lady what man hath the power to see through your venality and deceit?” But that is honestly not chauvinistic.Deceit and venal qualities are meant to be in cahoots with man and no beast .
There are people who as told by Oscar Wilde, who," know the prize of everything but value of nothing”.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Pratheeksha






Pratheeksha" is nt that such a beautiful word! And "Swapnangal" too.
And what is in life if you do not have a concoction of "Hope and Dreams"???
The elixir that keeps many a mortal like me moving on!!!!!!!!

And the ubiquitous astrologers and numerologists who predate around decreed to my wife that "Pratheeksha" is an ominous, intemperate name that shall not be for my little Dream I built on a good patch of land .Typically Mallu!!!

And my identity as a malayalee I want to confine to the only extent of my birth into a malayalee family.

And who shall decree that I must not have hope and dreams now that I have wife of 20 years and two dear children?? And umpteen problems of the daily chores.
Every soul must have hope and as Maman ( Balan) notes in all his emails-“ 'Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much”.

It is but strange, providentilally that we run across books that suits our mood, time and psyche.

I remember devouring with ravenous appetite the two hard cover volumes of Alexander Dumas’s , “Count of Monte Cristo”,after rummaging through the library of the Mahatma Gandhi College ,Thiruvananthapuram (1976).It was the teen mood of romance and heroism that intoxicated then. And wished with added vigor after also not missing all the Hindi versions of romance and heroism shown on the screens at Sreekumar Theater that one could identify with the count of Monte Cristo himself. But alas Madame oille “Mercedes’ was elusive those days.
It was equally feverous, I remember taking our turns to get hold of the copy of “Venus in India” that was in circulation in the pre-degree section of the commerce dept of the college. The sexually explicit pages in print was blending with our mood to decode the elusive feminine anatomy/physique .But those were the years in my part of the country when such “privilege” was rarely visiting only a handful of lucky few. And “The Summer of 1942”was only adding immeasurably to the woes of teen age. James Hadley Chase the fruit punch and lively too.

Reading as a habit kicked off with Enid Blyton ,a graduation of sorts in terms of English language, from Lee Falk’s Phantom and Mandrake comics, Tarzan and Flash Gordan.All these were supplemented if not garnished with the fascination of Bobanum Moliyum that was eagerly awaited every Wednesday or so.And Mali Kathakal in the Mathurbhoomi weekly not to forget the monthly dose of fantasies from “Ambilimamman “ and “Poompatta”.Aravindans “ Cheria Manushayrum Veliyalokavum “ was a trifle difficult for my mental faculty at that age ( 1972-75) .Though I eagerly bought the compiled edition of Aravindans animated magnum opus from DC Books, while well in my 30’s.But the ever present unscrupulous book pincher ( no not who) deprived me of its possession.





The Hari- Sree of Terror and the unknown was from the plagiarism of Kottayam Pushpanath .That is not a dénouement of the writer and my reading- grasping faculties I’m certain.

I always felt and I’m certain, that it took a good while for me to take to books of substance. And a handful of very good friendships and acquaintances helped me so.
Peter Matheson’s” Snow leopard” and The Zen and the Art of Motor Cycle Maintenance being examples .But I must confess I could figure out nothing much reading the highly acclaimed book of Robert Maynard Pirsig . Though I can never forget introduction into Somerset Maughams and the hills of Kkillmanananjaro immortalized by Papa Hemmingway.
(Would not forget Maman (Balan) for these pleasantly memorable initiations. It may be farthest from exaggeration if I say that the spirit of Maugham walked by my side through the corridors and between rows of book shelves at the Public Library in Thiruvannathapuram, to where he alighted once in the 1930’s.

M.T.s” Nallukettu” was picked from The Public Library and that must have been in the 1980-81.It was a frenzied reading because of some real life characters that haunted me then. and “Oru Deshathinte Katha” was read in loneliness in Kohima in 1982. Discomfiture from paternal tragedy and anguish added to my psyche from the lines of that novel

I fancied myself in the secret rendezvous of The Secret Seven and the fascinating sea side haunts and the Island off the coast of The Famous Five. I remember vividly it was 9+21, of the Secret Seven and Famous five books I had in my personal collection all bought at Rs2 from Bhaskaran Nair Books at Pulimmod junction and the Pai & Co opposite Ayurveda College .Money of course gotten from extraneous sources and clandestinely to boot .As back home reading outside the curriculum was considered an anathema. But that horrendous late morning (1974) - I can still feel my heart twitch in convulsion and rip apart agonisingly from inside the rib cage, when I recollect taking those books to the terrace and pour kerosene over and lit. That was the only way I could stave off an official enquiry from within the house as to how I could get possession of these brand new editions of so many books. As it was too unconvincing to make believe the story that they were borrowed. Because the pages were aromatic of mystery and of the unknown to me and the smell of brand new leaflets of paper to my elders. Nevrthless I came to be noted a “A MARKED PERSON” since.

It was in 1983-84 one of those two weekend evenings( with one hour of power cuts) all alone in the apartment in Ernakulum, when every little ruffle, imaginary whisper and footsteps drained me of my life inch to inch, but yet my hold over Bram Stoker’s Count Dracula” was hauntingly blissful..




It was akin to losing the house you were born, and grew up- when the Newspapers revealed one fine morning that was not to be , The British Council Library has put down shutters for ever. The memories of Maurice Proctor and Inspector Martineau,The Mandarin stories of James Leasor, the black and white image filled books of the Ashes rivalry and the great Ranjith Singhji, the good old Parthasaathy (the Librarian) who reprimanded me for sneaking out on my junior account a book on Human anatomy……

But then it was when after reading I laid down ‘The Shape of The Beast” -conversation with the pretty Arundati Roy that I concluded for sure that all these little readings and world of books dose not matter unless they can chisel you into an ember smoldering with figurative and argumentative knowledge and incensed when insolence, tyranny and injustice is perpetuated And you hesitate to be a bystander and on looker.. Which in many case I’m and hence a hypocrite – a hypocrite who has some conscience left but lives a eunuch.